內(nèi)心的火焰

在緬因州嚴(yán)冷的冬季，我15歲的兒子安東依然僅著短褲和T恤衫在戶外活動(dòng)。我克制了自己用大衣、圍巾和手套將他緊緊包裹的念頭，選擇尊重他，也因此獲得了一次愜意的經(jīng)歷。

By Robert Klose

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A winter’s day in Maine, with a cobalt blue sky and a lacing of snow in the pines,[1] is incomparably beautiful. If not for the biting cold I would more deeply partake of it.[2] As it is, on the coldest days I generally spend time outside only by necessity[3]: to shop for food, shovel snow, or split wood for the ever-hungry stove.[4] But my 15-year-old son is a different story.

It is 7 a.m. and I am standing on the warm side of the kitchen window, hot cup of tea in hand, watching Anton trudge off to school in the dim and frigid Maine morning.[5] The only thing more remarkable than a teenage’s ability to drag himself out of bed and hit the road at such a lonely hour is his attire: shorts and a T-shirt.[6] I glance at the thermometer: 20 degrees Fahrenheit.[7] Yes. Remarkable.

A well-meaning parent once scolded me for “l(fā)etting” my son go out in the cold so scantily clad.[8] But Anton has always been like this. From running barefoot in the snow when he was 5 to jumping into freezing Maine lakes in autumn, he just doesn’t seem to feel the cold. I think, then, that it is a matter of his strength rather than my weakness as a parent.

Early on, of course, my impulse was to bundle him, against his will, to the point of suffocation with woolens, doubled socks, scarf, and gloves.[9] And that would have made him uncomfortable and resentful. Considering all the other complexities and challenges of raising a child, I soon learned to choose my battles with care. Dressing for warmth just didn’t seem like one worth fighting, no matter how cold I felt just looking at Anton plowing his way through the drifts in his sneakers.[10]

And then, one day, my forbearance bore unanticipated fruit.[11]

I awoke at an early hour to the wind howling[12] about the eves like a spirit possessed. Our very old, wood-frame house wheezed in the joints—a ship ill at ease on a bounding sea.[13] I gazed from bed at the burgeoning day as a light snow gusted past the window.[14] During the night the stove had burned its complement[15] of wood and gone cold. I girded myself for the bundling up, the pulling on of stiff boots, and the march through the snow to the wood pile for another armful of fuel.[16] Warm under the covers, it was the last thing I wanted to do.

And then I heard it. A singular[17] sound. A sort of “chock!” that cut through the moaning wind and the creaking house.[18] And then again. “Chock!” I lay back in bed and gathered the unmistakable rhythm of wood being split.

“Chock!”

Now even the chill of the house and the early hour could not restrain me. I got out of bed and went to the window. There, his breath steaming from his mouth, was my son—in T-shirt and work gloves—swinging the wood maul in practiced arcs the way I had taught him, coming down squarely on length after length of wood, cleaving the sticks cleanly in two.[19]

Now, mind you, this is a boy who will not pick his socks up and whose room looks like the final proof of chaos theory.[20] But here he was, by dawn’s early light, splitting wood, unbidden[21]. A short while later I listened as he returned to the house, dumped the pile into the bin near the stove, and rekindled the fire. Then he crept back up to bed.[22]

My impulse was to jump up and thank him. But I didn’t do this. Because I didn’t want to break the spell[23].

All I knew was that some angel of Anton’s nature had moved him to act, and that his indifference to cold had permitted this. My impression was that he had reached yet another milestone[24] in growing up: the one that allowed him, without loss of self-respect, to be aware of the needs of others, parent included.

Vocabulary

1. Maine: 緬因州（美國(guó)東北角的州）；cobalt: 深藍(lán)色；lacing: 鑲邊，此處為比喻義。

2. 要不是這刺骨的嚴(yán)寒，我會(huì)更樂(lè)意享受其中。partake of: 分享，參與。

3. by necessity: 不可避免地。

4. shovel: 鏟；stove: 火爐。

5. trudge: 跋涉，吃力地走；dim: 昏暗的；frigid: 寒冷的。

6. attire: 服裝，衣服；shorts: 運(yùn)動(dòng)短褲。

7. thermometer: 溫度計(jì)；Fahrenheit: 華氏溫標(biāo)，華氏20度相當(dāng)于攝氏零下7度左右。

8. well-meaning: 好心的，善意的；scantily clad: （衣服）穿得過(guò)少的。

9. 早先，當(dāng)然我沖動(dòng)地想把他包裹起來(lái)——違背他的意愿——用羊毛外套、雙層襪子、圍巾和手套把他裹到窒息的程度。

10. plow(plough) one’s way: 奮力前行；drift: 積雪；sneaker: 運(yùn)動(dòng)鞋。

11. 我的忍耐產(chǎn)生了意想不到的結(jié)果。

12. howl: 咆哮，吼叫。

13. 我們老舊的木頭架構(gòu)的房子在其連接處喘息，如同波浪起伏的海面上一艘惶恐不安的船只。

14. burgeoning: 迅速生產(chǎn)（發(fā)展）的；gust: （強(qiáng)風(fēng)等）猛刮。

15. complement: 需要的數(shù)額。

16. 我做好穿得暖暖的、套上硬靴子、走進(jìn)雪里去木頭堆那兒抱一些柴火的準(zhǔn)備。gird oneself: （使）做好準(zhǔn)備。

17. singular: 奇怪的，異常的。

18. chock: 此處用作象聲詞，形容劈木頭的聲音；moaning: 嗚咽的；creaking: 嘎吱作響的。

19. ……（他正）以我教他的弧線形嫻熟地?fù)]舞著伐木錘，來(lái)到一節(jié)一節(jié)的木頭中間，利落地把它們劈成兩半。

20. mind you: 提醒你一下，請(qǐng)注意；chaos theory: 混沌論。

21. unbidden: 自愿的，未被要求的。

22. dump: 傾倒；rekindle: 重新點(diǎn)燃。

23. spell: 魔力，吸引力。

24. milestone: 里程碑。

（來(lái)源：英語(yǔ)學(xué)習(xí)雜志 編輯：陳丹妮）